Tuesday April 9,2013
I went grocer shopping today despite the day I had I can truly say I'm blessed.I won't complain or anything because I know God will handle my complaints,but I do think God is test me and to see how much I can handle things.
On another note, April 7 made three months since I started exercising,and it kind of
snuck creep up on me with out me realizing it.So I'm still going to keep moving on,but their be one difference to my exercising or should I say walking routine.I'm gonna start a little later than my schedule time,I'm gonna be switching it up from time to time to see if I can handle it. Even though I switching things up April has started off kind of rocky.I missed three days so far and the month hasn't yet to begun.I'll make them up in the the days i use as a off day.
Now, This thing we call moderation .Ugh! OK the thing is I've incorporated vegan eating,and I started eating some things organic and plus I haven't had any red meat in almost three months.Woo hoo, yeah great!Not! These things are all well and good but if I don't do it in moderation then what's the point of me trying to eat healthy.That's where the dilemma comes in,me with moderation is just like the opposite of it,and that's a problem.
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Wednesday April 10,2013
Today I walk later than my normal schedule time when i usually walk,it was more people out,and day break was approaching.I usually walk when still dark out around 5 am but I said i was going to switch up my schedule,well my time that I walk to see if i can handle it.Today was OK until the rain start falling,but my walk was pleasant one,I have to stop every now and then,because if I don't I would keel over from walking.My body still hasn't gotten use to walking, it seems like every time that I go walking it's a challenge for me to do.I walk the ten and a half blocks to the park then walk around it once then walk the ten half blocks back, then I do some work out exercise afterwards,and my body still hasn't gotten in the rhythm of doing it,and it's been three months now.
You would think that I would of gotten use to the routine of doing this every day but I haven't,it's like I'm just starting of new every time i get up to go walking and to do my workouts afterwards.It feels like I'm forcing myself to do this,.Meaning it's hard getting my self in motion to do it, every day, but I still get up to do it.
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Friday April12,2013
Whew! TGIF for some people and just plane ole Friday for me.....
Random thoughts:
* Have you ever notice some people how they can be leery of others and the ones that they suppose cautious about they don't have clue to who they really are.If that make any sense....I always write that some time it's kind of hard to convey what I trying to type.
*I wrote back in one of my blog post about how I notice how some men act like they have blinders,It's kind funny because the post I wrote I seen some men do.Now I don't think what I wrote has any correlation to my blog post that I wrote.It just a funny that's all......
On another note,I walk my 10
1/2 blocks to the park and once around the park and back home,I don't if I trying to gain muscle or if my legs are tired from all the walking.I said I was going to start going later in my walking routine,I'm doing that but like I said in a previous post some times I will go walking later or at my usual time.
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Saturday April 13,2013
Random thought:
when you know someone is talking about and laughing at you instead with you,make them out to be a liar or make your presence known that what they say or laugh about doesn't and will not hurt you none what so ever, in fact it's your motivation to prove what they say or talk about will not bother you or hinder you at all.Because they won't do in you face, or if so they are with a group of people to validate them as a person. They will find the Minute(Mi noot) thing to talk/laugh about you,it can be any thing, they need that validation of what their doing is OK. whether it be on the internet or in person.Speaking in general or rather typing it.
On another note,I walk to the park and back, boy was I tired when I first woke up,I won't say why I was tired all I have to say is God, will answer my complaint,What I can't handle he will do the rest,but back to me and my walking exercise.Before I even was head out the door I didn't want to go,I literally didn't want to walk today,but I went on anyway.A few times I want to turn around and just say forget it but I push on anyway....Oh! I definitely when later than I normally would go and I will continue to do again.Maybe I do it sporadically....who knows....
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Monday April 15,2013
Whew! what a refreshing walk,even though I force my self to get up top go walking this morning.I had only two hours of sleep..... Jeez! when I started to go back to sleep it was time for me to do my morning walking exercise.
Random Thought:
-When I say random I mean random though,t I'm curious as to know can some one really read some ones mind, If so wouldn't you think some one would profit from that kind of gift.Also would you think God would intend for every one to read some one s mind or is it abomination.
-Does one opinion make or break you?(a general question) for me as a child it did when I was in a care accident My whole way of walking change completely. I felt insecure of what others would say about how I walk.Fast forward today I had plenty learning experience in ones opinion of me.Meaning I had time to hear the laughter,people talk about the way I walk for m my hair to my sexually had all the question made fun to were it just doesn't faze me,yes I may harbor over but I been through enough to know. you have in considered people in the world ,and if they can talk about Jesus Christ(Using Jesus, as a reference) then they will make fun,and talk about you.
I like to give people or who ever some thing to talk about or laugh about,(speaking or typing in general)I make my presence be known,I won't hide or shy away from anything just because of what you think or you opinion about me is going to break me.I hold My head up high and let in be known,what you say about me (or laugh)is my motivation.
OK,I just look up a word to be sure I'm using correctly ,I often do that a lot .Anyway, to my surprise I found out the true meaning of .So I have to go back change what I thought it meant wasn't actually the correct way of using it.No shame in my game....
I thought the word gape meant like a slight dip in they way some one walk,um mm NOT!
Here's the true definition:
gape
- stare with mouth open: to look at somebody or something in surprise or wonder, usually with an open mouth
- open mouth: to open the mouth wide
- open into gap: to open or split apart with a gap
Another random thought I had,recently a YouTube guru had made video about some one saying her hair looks ghetto.You want know what's ghetto throwing trash in other peoples yard,when it a trash can is steps from where they threw the trash in the first place,now that's ghetto....you know what else is ghetto some one throwing their child's nasty a*s diapers in some ones yard,now that's ghetto.May be ghetto is the wrong word to use,how about ratchet...... I don't if it's ghetto or ratchet.All I know is it's nasty..and the you tuber hair is far from being ghetto
Jeez! I thought meant something else,Hmm I wonder what other words I'm/was using incorrectly.
NOW, back to this walking routine,I still haven't got use to getting up and going walking yet,like I said previously.It's like I'm forcing my body to go walking ,and it feels like a chore.I guess I'm have to continue to feel that way until I get use to this walking.Also,I resolve the fact that I'm not going to get down to the size I want in time for summer, it's just impossible for me to accomplish since, I'm having a hard time trying to get use to exercising. I though by me walking every day and working out some how some way it would be enough for me to loose the weight.NOT!
I have taken into consideration that my age is a factor ,and my body is going loose the weight(I'm guessing )like it suppose to be.I was so focus ion trying to loose the weight I was literally wearing my self out trying to get down to a certain pant size by the summer.It just not going to happen.Now,I'm a still do my walking every day ,and and try to limit my workouts after my walking to a minimal instead of trying to do it every day.But, the fact is,I'm not obsess about trying to get down to a certain size no more because I know it's going to take time for this weight to come off.So I might as well enjoy the ride (sort a speak)and continue my journey of loosing this weight......
I'm dying my hair,the color is a dark cheery......sooooo I'm see how this going to turn out.After my hair color treatment,I'm give my self a facial,I'm long over do for One.It's nothing but a mask treatment. I not going to let this color stay in my hair to long,because the color is very intense.
um mm update I didn't l let the color stay on my hair long enough so it looks like I just color the tips.The color look so intense on my head I thought it would be the same as when I put it on there..Oh, well ,maybe my facial mask treatment will turn out OK .Like I said it's just a mask,it's not like it's a chemical peel or some thing. lol! but seriously I use to dye my hair all the time in high school now it seems like I can't get the right color for my hair.I'm a let this color grow out,in which it won't take long to do since I didn't let the color stay in my hair that long.They I'll find a color I will like.....
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Thursday April 18,2013
Random thought:
-Again I going repeat what I posted earlier people who bully or cyber bullying or if their talking/laughing about you instead with you,they need to be validate of what their doing is OK. I I feel validation is key,because truth be told they know it's wrong,but need peoples approval of what their doing is OK.#JMO
On another note,Ugh! Today I missed my morning walking exercise,I had perfect excuse this time,it was raining out,I mean at times it was coming down hard,and other time it was just drizzling.But, heading into my fourth month of exercising I'm struggling a bit, I mean I missed more than 6 days total and the month hasn't even begun yet...I don't know what the deal is,I resolve that fact that I'm not going to get down to a certain size by summer,that's not the problem ,anymore.And I also resolve the fact that I have to critique my eating habits.Sure,I was eating health,but the fact remain the same I wasn't eating in moderation,well when it came to sweets I went overboard with it.I mean they were health but what's the point of eating healthy if I'm going to eat like theirs no repercussions from it.The sweets/desserts some where vegan and some weren't vegan and I was eating them like a snack.I like to snack a lot ,more so than I would say making full course meal....I don't know why that is,but I do. I love cooking and baking but some times I just prefer snacking instead.
Back to my walking exercise I won't bad use of words,I will not give up on my exercising none what's so ever,even if I'm struggling a bit.I'm chalking it up to the fact that's a part of my weight loss journey and for me personally that's something I'm just going to have to deal with whether I like it or not.At times I force my self to get out of bed to go and do my morning exercise.I don't know why that is,I would think that after three months I should be use to this by now.Maybe because I would go to bed around twelve and wake up around four thirty. that;'s not sleeping none what's so ever.SO, I going to try and go to bed a t decent hour to see if that s the reason for me feeling like I'm forcing my self to get up to go walking.Every step I take(pun intended) Is a part of my weight loss journey,but the fact remain the same I'm not stopping my weight loss journey at all.Now if I had the same motivation with my manuscript it probably would been done by,now.
Yesterday I finally tried my foundation a YouTube guru had mentioned,Maybeline Fit 355 coconut foundation in liquid form with SPF 18.I like it I put it all over my face Including my lids.I used it sparingly,so I could build it up if neccesary,but it wasn't. I was surprise that the shade match my skin tone, but I only saw it in my UV lights instead seeing it in daylight. I wore it through out the day with out any loose or pressed powder.Of course the foundation became shiny and the eyeliner that I put on over the foundation that was on my lids smear a whole lot.So,Note to self no more foundation on my lids,but over all I like the foundation and it's coverage all I need is some powder to ward off the shininess of the foundation.It took me a long time to try this because I was waiting on to get some make up setting spray.Oh,I use Wet N Wild coloricon 740 all over my face because i didn't have a powder to set my foundation.
Today I tried another foundation I had for a very long time Black Radiance foundation in coffee glaze.Now this foundation is in solid form with a creamy texture. this particular foundation sets to from cram to powder form .So, in other words you really don't need a any type of powder to set this particular foundation because it's a already built in it.Oh, before I put on the foundation I used Black Radiance primer,and after i put on the foundation I use their concealer in perfect blend. With the foundation I used the blush Wet N wild coloricon in heather silk. on my lids I used a palette that I got from T mart just a brown color with black eyliner and mascara to top it off I used color whisper cherry on top......love that lip stick.Also,I forgot to mention that the concealer that I use was a solid for,but I also go a stick of Black Radiance too.
Over all on the make the I tried out,I want to see a difference in foundation,and how long it would stay on my face.After,I I sat fours of wearing the Maybeline foundation I definitely needed some type of powder on my face to combat the shininess from the foundation but i like the color and it didn't crease or anything like that ,but I have yet to wear it out in the day light that the other test I have to try,but I won't be doing that until I get a some type of powder for it.
the foundation I waited for so long to use the Black Radiance foundation one,so far so good with the coverage of there product.If i h ad to compare the two foundations I say I like them both the only difference is that one has a powder built in already and the other doesn't it's still to early to tell if the foundation last a long time,but one i have notice I don't have a shine to my face.
Update on the foundation I put on today I sweep up some trash in the back yard with my uncle it wasn't much but enough to where i can see some shine through my foundation,like I said before I didn't put a lot on to begin with but enough to cover my face.I think I need to build up this foundation to see if I can get the full coverage.I only see a littler bit of shine in my t-zone area.
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Monday April 22,2013
Jeepers creepers I went out walking and didn't see a single soul not one bit,well it was still dark out when I started my morning walk,and I did see some cars out and about but by the time I came back from my morning walk I seen a few people out in about. Hm mm I better start walking latter than what I usually walk.
Random thought:
-How should I put this, did I just seen a man cross to the other side of the street this morning. Didn't they do that back in the 50's or 60's?#IJS I seen some ladies do that to, next thing you know they gonna start holding their purse tight.I did say random......
-people think they know you but they don't it's like they on the out side accessing your life, but don't have clue to really what's going on.
My randoms thought are just that random thoughts sometimes, and some times they are in reference to what I think or have seen.
Gape=
to look at somebody or some thing in surprise usually with there mouth open
I seen a few people who have done so, don't you know how you don't want stare at someone but soon as they see you glance at them they look forward as if not to let you see them staring.It's the same when you see some one laughing. it so obvious.
For example:I use my self for example If I was to have a tick or muscle spasm in my face would that automatically cause some some to gape at me
There is a video that A YouTuber dome that was sooooo poignant that I think/feel a lot a men should look at...but not only men ,but women as well. #JMO
All this is, just random thoughts,and definitions no reference to any one......
On another note,like I said I did my morning walk today,I didn't feel like I force myself to go walking.I did the whole walk to the park thang ,but the thing is, for me personally I know my body more than anything,and me not stopping to slow down isn't helping none what's so ever.I usually stop and rest for a bit and continue on,but not today.I'm not on a weight loss journey as it seems but a learning one as well.Well. let me go carry some tree branches to to the garbage,and come back and have some coffee or maybe some breakfast....
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Wednesday April 24,2013
I was read,set, and read to go and do my morning walk this morning ,until I got out side and was feeling some drizzle come down.Some may say I could went on and dealt with the drizzle true, but by the time I did my morning walk and came back I would of been soak from the distance of my waling exercise.Boy!I swear this month has been awful with me missing a lot of days.I'm not going to fret, because I know I will be making this days up all through may and part of June.
I must admit I can see I'm loosing some weight, just a little in my stomach area.I'm kind of stoked about it but I'm not going to celebrate not to much because I see I have a long way to go. Especially with these days I missed,but I'm not going to harbor on them because I know it just a part of my personally weight loss journey I'm on.I had to do a little tweaking in my eating habits you talk about hard,and I mean real hard,but I kind of getting use to it.,just a little. If I keep up with it I know it will be part of my eating regimen.but,back to me noticing a little change in my weight, it just me seeing it.I just going on what I see and I'm not for sure if I really lost any weight or not.
How should I put this with out trying to be to graphic...um mm I think I I was going to tell how I can see a that I'm loosing weight,but I'll wait on telling,and just continue to do my exercise.
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Random thought: I will say this over and over until I'm blue in the face,literally! people that talk/laugh about you,instead of with you need validation of approval of what their doing is OK whether they post on a website for anonymous approval or with a group of people.
It just like a bully needs to validated for for bullying another person whether they post on online or with a group of friends, you will never see a bully doing that by themselves , just like you will never see another adult whether male or female that talk/laugh about you by themselves doing it,If you think about it they are with some one when doing it.
For the people that are being bullied or for those who who feel that people are talking/laughing about you,you got remember people see something in you that they don't see in themselves so they choose to make
you feel/ look like an idiot to make them selves feel better,and I'm not talking about no specific person I'm speaking in general.But, one I will never understand How can an man be scared, afraid,intimidated,threaten,jealous by a woman?Reason me for saying this is, I saw reality court case on TV yesterday and the man said to fact that he was scared of the situation of his girlfriend finding out that he had another girl.First off I was raised to believe that no man should be afraid scared,intimidate,threaten,jealous by no one,and especially by no female, I was raised to where a man doesn't show his emotion to know one(well only in serious situation)but a man has strength,a a penis, an just physically capability more than a woman does,and if he afraid,intimidate,scare or jealous he doesn't show it ,especially to a female. I was a was raised believing that,maybe I'm wrong about it.........I did post random thought.....
this link I'm about to post doesn't have anything to do with my randomness that I post I just like the video,and it's deep and profound. It's called
Men Grow Up
On another note nothing new to report about my walking exercise other than I'm treading on with it.The weather was nice out today a little breezy but other than that it was OK. I don't feel like I'm forcing my self to get up and do my exercise.Never quitting this weight loss Journey that I'm on.........
