My Experiment Book

                       



Today is Sunday so it's off day for exercising,but their is some thing new to talk about..well, it's not new.But anyway, their is more to me than trying to keep track of my exercise routine,by blogging it down.I've started an experiment book,what I mean by experiment book is a short story book I'm writing  just to put my self out there and get a feel of having something published.Not only that I'm want some feed back from the public on how if they like it or not.So, in other words they can critique my writing,If they like or not........I not that good with editing so I know I will get couple or maybe a lot people critiquing that as well.Now,I haven't totally abandon my book Psycho Bitch ...it just I want to  put a book out.
The book....I mean manuscript is about two twin boys who grew up differently and one being jealous of the others life. they know about each other,but was raised in a different enviorment.I know,It's typical but really it's not.I just started on this short story book/manuscript and I been wanting to write this story down for a long time.I've look up what is consider to be a short story for a book,and I saw 7500 for it to be a short story,but I remember reading a book that was a short story and was surprise that it was only 4000 words only,and I might add that it was a good read,to.The book will be available only on ereaders ,for now.Like I said this is an experiment book or books who knows....but I want to put one out to see how it goes.
The process  I'm looking for to, like I said this story I been wanting to put on paper for awhile to be  exact,I say about a year or  so,I just didn't want to write nothing else until I finish my other manuscript.I have stories I want to write down,and don't because I feel I'm abandoning the other one.I end up just thinking it's to immature to start writing on another story when I haven't finished the one I've started.Anyway,I found a couple of sites that you can publish your manuscripts for free.So I'm going to take advantage of this by  doing a short story,and just putting it out there.I'm kind of excited about it,but scared and aware of what's to follow or not.....but anyway it goes,I can say I published a book.
On another note I made some spaghetti the other day and it was, good! I made it with whole wheat pasta,and lean ground turkey.I used olive oil so the turkey meat wouldn't dry out,I add celery,onions,yellow, green, and red peppers to the meat and finish off with some tomato sauce.It was delicious! I'm having that with some fish tonight so left overs it is for me.I won't be watching the Oscars tonight,I'm not into watching shows like that.I'm more into what,and who was wearing what and how they look more than any thing.
But yeah,  possibly a book....I might have out  with in this year. My fingers are crossed.....


               Until next time,
                   Ciao!

On A Journey

                                                                  


Whew!!! The first of the month of the new year is almost , and I've already have plans for  the rest of the year.For some reason I'm trying to stay focus on what I want out life ,I guess.Anyway,For one I cancel all of my social media outlets,I mean they were not helpful or useful to me in any way shape or form,and besides it would of been nice to correspond to some one ever now and then,but that just wasn't happening at all.So,I decide what's the use of having them,and besides another reason I canceled them I really want to focus on my blogging,I mean I really haven't focus much on each one of the blogs every since I started them.
Now,that the new year is here in full affect I plan on trying to take advantage of it the best way possible,and I'm doing it with out  whole lot of money. I plan  on utilizing this year ,I won't saw their won't going to be the best year of my life (Pun intended)because I know I will encounter some stumbling blocks along the way,and I would be lying if I say I won't frustrate a time or two or thinking about giving up or throwing in the towel.Because I have thought about that ever now and then,and something keeps tell to keep pushing on,and I'm going to do it to.
For one, I will trying to give my utmost attention to each  blog,What I will not do is try to put a post up every day or commit to it,because by now I know how I am I will totally committed to doing things at first then down the line I feel off the bandwagon.I know your next question is then why is this year any different?I don't know why, but for some reason  I was blessed with another year on this earth,and don't you know you just get sick and tire waiting on something that  you could have changed in your life if I've put in a little effort in   trying to do.
This year I'm taking it slow I'm not rushing into any thing whether it be spiritual healing,body improvement,blogging or what ever the case maybe.I'm not saying slow in what task I got at hand.I mean slow as in do what ever it takes within my means to do it,and it  will eventually fall into place.


Until next time,(in which it will be real soon)
                Ciao!
 

Believing In Karma

                                                                
KARMA-

1.actions determining future state: in Hindu and Buddhist philosophy, the quality of somebody's current and future lives as determined by that person's behavior in this and in previous lives

2.

atmosphere: the atmosphere radiated by a place, situation, person, or object ( informal )

3.

destiny: destiny or fate

Do you believe in karma? Like when, what goes around will eventually come back around,I kind of do.Like when people in general think what they do to others is ok for them to do, because they see others doing it  to some one or some thing then it's ok for them to do it.I was always wonder about the consequences of my actions. When I was a kid I use to do anthing I was challenge to do.You say what's that got to do with Karma ,..well nothing but,for the fact is when I had my car accident in 1984 my whole life had change,and I view life completely different.Meaning I'm more sensitive to others, and I have empathty when I think of others,not that I didn't before.But it just that I often wonder if I wasn't in  a car accident would I have the same thoughts or fellings as I do know, or would it even enter my train of thought,I seriously don' think not.
I know what you thinking as you read the first paragrph about me as a kid,and what it has to do with Karma.It just that  I wa thinking about what if's,and my believe  on this Karma thing.
But,back to about believing in karma....I seriously believe that what you do to others will eventually come around to you.Now,what I  believe it won't be in the same sense as you do others or maybe it will.It might  be in a certain ways you probably think it just a stroke of bad luck.I'm guessing.Do I believe at the snap of a hand that karma will get some one.NO! but,I do believe in do time karma will sneak up  on some one when they least expect it.Do I hoping or wish for  for karma?NO! What I do believe two wrongs don't make it right,and you if  you see others doing something yo consider to be wrong thwen why do it.Let's just put it this way, you don't   wwant to what conder a harsh deed done to some you either care about orr love.Now,don't get me wrong I think it's ok to have fun every now and thenor playing the dirty dozens  or casing as some one might call it but if  it's gonnause ase a bullying tacted then I say,KARMA is a bitch. what goes around do comes back around.
Oh!Have yo ever heard somebody  if some one is  doing you wrong kill them with kindness.DoI believe that,and what it got to do with karma.First off,I did believe being nice to some one,and respectful will help,I'm starting think about the being kind to people part who wish,tease,taunt,laugh at instead of with you Should I still be kind to those  that does that.Hm mm? I'm have to get back to that one.Killing with kindness really doen't have nothing to do with karma, at least I don't think that it does I may be wrong ,but who knows.

In all I feel if you doing some one wrong,and others are joining in and doing it, just  togain attention by  doing somebody wrong,then I do believe in karma,and I also believe time is key. This is just my brief opinion on karma ,and some of my anaolgy maybe wrong,like I said  this is just a brief opinion of what I think about karma.


                             until next time
                                   Ciao!

A Different Outlook

                                                            

So,I turn another year on January the 21,I thank GOD for blessing me with another year,and  or waking me up each every day.I'm blessed beyond believe! At least I think so.So what did I do,nothing in particular I just made me  some dinner ,and some brownies,but on my birthday MLK birthday was observe,and the President of the United States was sworn in,I was so happy.(M)artin(L)uther(K)ing birthday isn't really on the 21st of January it's really on the 15 they  just observe 21 for a holiday.I'm thinking that's why.Also, the  President being sworn  in,on my birthday is kind of special thing within itself.Because he is the first black President to reach a second term, in office...well,he is the only black President ever to reach a second term for  the United States Presidency.I will remember January 2009,and 2013 when he was sworn in as the first black President to ever  be sworn in,in 2009,and to take a second term in 2013.
I'm elated about those two things but I'm also  fill with joy about others things,as well.Two months maybe three months ago I was deciding on walking again as I did before.I did it about two years ago,but I stop because I didn't see instantaneously results, I did  later on down the line,but by then I had quit walking.I'm the  type of person if I don't see results fast then I throw in the towel and say what's the use.
Well,I have a different out look,and perspective on how I want to loose weight If I didn't mention it in few sentence ago when  I said when I first started walking that,was my original purpose. Anyway,back to why I have a new outlook,and perspective on trying to loose this weight. First off I was in a hurry.When I  first originally started walking I would walk for an hour  or so,and burn myself out.I would be so tired for the rest of the day,and another thing is I was so sore all the time, not mention I only exercise about three or maybe two times a week,and the rest  of the week I wouldn't work out.Also another thing is, I would eat every thing under the sun...well, not every thing just about.The thing is, now I see what I did back then in trying to loose weight  that didn't work for me,and I'm  changing what will.If your not following me here's example of what I'm talking about.OK, the thing is,I thought there is a gennie in a bottle that can grant me a wish to make me small at the snap of a hand,I know that it that's not possible but wishing,and hoping to loose weight with the push walking for an hour,had me believing so.
I know  that their is no way in hell that could possibly  happen.Suffice to say I really thought  if I walk or push my self hard with  some type  way or another I was going to loose weight,fast. I know,I know what  thinking,what hell is she  talking about? "Snap of finger""Gennie in a bottle" What kind of thinking is that?It's the kind thinking when a big person who's been big her whole entire life  want to loose weight wishing it would happen. Now,I don't think that.Why? Because I'm in no rush for to loose weight.See the thing is, last time I want to prove something,and I kind of wanted to prove to myself it can be done. I know,boy,what a day dreamer!Also, another thing about this weight loose  thing is,I'm walking every day instead of an hour I walk for 20 minutes at the most.This is first time I every walk for a whole two weeks straight without getting overwhelmed by it.Another I added working out at home to list,that's is another thing that I haven't done ever.Don't get me wrong I was sore for the first two weeks,and out of breath from walking.But, in a way it was a good kind of soreness that I've welcomed.Why rush to loose weight when truthfully I know it's going to take some time  to do,so why not  do it right and enjoy doing it.Oh!I musting  forget I had added a healthy way eating...well, not quite,
Let me explain since I'm on a budget so I choose to modify what I eat.So,I'm not completely cutting out everything,I'm just it doing in moderation.Don't get  wrong I'm not going to just eat what ever I want is under the sun,I will probably have it ever blue moon or eventually try to gradually cut back on it,and  it will eventually be out of my way of eating.
I'm sorta of on this weight lose journey (if it's called that) of  eating healthy,and a slimmer me,and that's not say their will not be  some stumble blocks in my path thrown my way.But,This time I think I got it,I really do.They say with age there is wisdom.I don't know about any wisdom,I  just think, it finally clicked.
NOW,If I can find a man.lol.......That should be my next topic.


    Until next time,
                Ciao!

Reading Your Mind

                                                        
Have you ever wondered if any one can read your mind? hm mm!I kind of wonder that,but I know that's just impossible for some one to do,or is it?I mean wouldn't they be called psychics or something,I wouldn't know.But, let me delve a little bit into,the what  if's.......
*What if some one can read you mind, can they honestly say that's actually  what you're thinking or are they going by something other than mind reading?
To me that would be the funniest thing if some one can actually do that,and actually believe that they  can. If so, they should be making  like a gazillion dollars.
OK, let me go back to the what if's hypothesis: Bare with me on this...
What if  some could truly could read your mind,can they  then define you as a person base on what they read from you?
*What if some one did  have telekinesis,and they can tell you what you're thinking this very second.well, not this very second,but if someone woulds to read your mind,wouldn't you be amazed? I would say,Yes!
but until that person show me their credentials all else theories have to go out the window,and to be quite frank...I would have my doubts about a person who believe they can read a person mind.
Here's another,What if's...
What if an average person can read your mind,what would you think of that person?Me personally,I would think that would be wonderful at first,but lets be real about this.I really don't think an average person can do that,and you have to awfully gullible to actually believe that.And plus,I would also think they don't have a life,to be honest.But who I'm to say,I'm just average person who couldn't sleep,and decided to blog about  it.Go,Figure!
Last one....
*What if  someone  can read you mind and base what they read off you and define you as a person from what you're thinking,would you (the reader) believe,then.?......Um mm ,NO! First off,I think IF some one   can do that, I would think that they don't have a life,and you are living rent free in their mind,because if they are taking that much time out to actually figure out  what you're thinking,Then I have to wonder about that person.That seems to me to be a little obsessiveness compulsiveness to do that and this individual that they're trying to read must be somebody special.
Over all,I wanted to do a post about if some can read some ones mind,and what another person thinking

Answer the what if's question.I've gave my opinion about it,and I would love to read your opinion.

             Until next time......
                  Ciao!

What 2013 Holds?

                                                        
Well, 2012 has come and gone,and now here's 2013. I didn't make any New Years resolutions, because I know I will not keep them. I haven't written  on this blog in  God knows how long,and since I'm not connected to any social sites any more maybe,just maybe I can devote my time with blogging,only time will tell.I'm not going to post a long drawn out  story about what 2013 hold for me, I'm just going to play by ear and see what this year holds.
 For the  people that's on my blog I hope you have very prosperous New Year.

Until, my next posting...hopeful soon!
                                 
                                Ciao!

PSYCHO BITCH (definitely unedited)MANUSCRIPT Explicited

                                                                             

I was deep in thought when my phone rang is this still the  mayors office of special events the voice said well it depends on what kind of event your looking for im looking for what ever your offering it took me awhile but it was the same voice who had called ealier while I was sitting in Angelia drive way are you down town no im north but I can meet you where ever you are that wouldn’t be no problem well im on Dorchester and Granville where they building the mini mall at no problem be there in a second I’ll be behind the site in a blue blazer alright then and I hung up and made a u-turn and was headed to the Doechester mall i could tell this person wasn’t from around hear he sound a little skeptical about where he was I got there in no time flat I drove around  what soon to be the parking lot and I didn’t see a blue blazer and I remember he said he was behind the the site perfect the  parking lot he was park way over in a corner where they had cinder blocks  I pull up beside him and shut my car off he unlock the door and I got in ready for some action but first before I did any thing he gave me a wade of money and that’s when the second person from the back seat appeared so mommi what you gonna do are you gonna do both us at the same time or one at a time it doesn’t make a damn bit of difference to either one of us they both  look serious and they weren’t playing around I got frantic for a moment and had to compose my self and not let  them see I wasn’t on my game I never done two before not at the same time well its first for ever thing this here is thousand dollars he handed me and I was about to give them the time of there lifes  I had to put my other plans on hold i mean there are two of them instead of the usual one I can handle the one but two will be a problem oh well time to get to business I crawl in the back seat and said  what you guys waiting on that’s what the fuck im talking about the driver got out of the car and prerceed to the back  I was already sucking on the guys dick in theback I had my ass already up in the air ready for  the other dick but I forgot I had on shorts and he was struggling and trying to get my  shorts down I pulled off my top and unbuckle my shorts and expose my body  to both of them it seem to get there dick hard when I took control continue to suck on the one mans dick while the other was trying to get in position from the feel of things I can see why he had get in postion he wasn’t working with anything but for a thouusand dollars I’ll make his dick feel like a mandingo dick he ease his way in then all of sudden he start pumping me like damn teenager would do I stop from sucking the other mans dick and made a ooo ahhh sound to let them know i was enjoying it when they heard that the man in from th back seat  slam my head back down on his dick and the other well he was tring to get his nut off but his dick wasn’t hitting anything  and I was about tired of him sliping out  and putting in as though he was gonna really do some thing I moan as I was licking the head of other man dick wishing he get in back of me and hit that spot were I have a comlete orgasim  his partner wasn’t doin a thang he finally had  cum if he hadn't moan  I wouldn’t knowed he done anything  so  now for the really good dick that I was waiting for  they switch postion and I put my whole entire mouth around ole boys penis I mean he was working with any thing and when I did that he let out a moan like a woman  I stop for a second to see if I wa pleasuring him when the other guy slide in the back and positin my hips slid in every so softly,and with  with his hands on my ass and started hitting my spot  right off hand with a gentle stroke I cood like a cat and oooo like i was in obilivion  the other man look at me and took my head on his dick I  swollowed his dick whole that really impress him I guess a female haven’t done it to him I was suck the shit out of his dick because of the money they both had shelled out the man from the back set was hitting it so good I had to raise my head twice to rub my clit it was so hard oh boy from the front knew the ther guy was pleasure me good because he shove my face back down to his dicki suck it I deep throat that tiny as much as I can while I was getting the best dick I ever had I couldn’t concentrate the dick was so good I keep raising my head and ole boy was getting mad so he got out the truck and lite a cigarette I couldn't say any thing because what ole boy was laying on me I was tongue tide and he was hitting it from every angle his dick  was sooo hard i felt every stroke my butt was hitting his hips like they were claping he flip me  over and it was on he rub clit as if to play with it and I arch my back and grab the head rest  he didn’t break traction at all infact I think we both was enjoying each other I moan so loud that other man  come to the window and peep inside the truck he look like he was real piss off I didn’t give fuck at this moment i was getting the best dick I ever had damn I  couldn't speak or talk both us was eye to eye  as he was hmy pussy go numb  he slip out a few times but  he got  right back in place and in the heat  of it all  we both moan  I oooo and ahhh at  every stroke he   hit  me with and I juist realize something he last a long time better than his friend did  that’s when his friend knock on the window talkin about hurry up we got go we I can tell he was getting ready to cum and I  wanted to catch his juices in my mouth i felt him getting read to unload his milky cum I pull his dick up t o my mouth and receive every bit of his juice he had the ugliest face you want to se but it was cute in a way his friend on the outside saw what happened and jump back inside thre driver seat  we could barely talk  because we both were out of breathe and tire from all the good fucking  he gave me a smile and a wink while he zipped up his pants I smile right back at him while  I saw his friend looking in the rearview mirrior I put my clothes back on and slide out the door while his friend stood out there holding it open as I was exiting the truck he handed me something I played it off and slide into my shorts because his friend was watching us like a hawk I had a smile on face told them both you both were  good I was lying threw my teeth and oh boy could see it too I mean if you are six feet  one and three hundred pounds in solid muscle I expect you to bring it  but I guess that's  myth  about all tall men because his friend was every bit of five eight and packing a man ingo dick  its been fun and I walk back to my car and turn around ole boy from the back seat was standing there still looking at me getting into my car you boys have my number if you need a little attention  the guy from the back seat said yes we do while the other was staring me down like I stole some thing from him I gave  them both them a smile and the man from the back got in the passager side of the o f the truck and they pull of like a bat out hell but not before the other man cut me a look of degrace like yeah Im not finish with you I broaden my  smile and buckle my seat belt and start my car it was dark behind  the abandon mall the  was the truck was gone I found my self still smiling fron the the man in the back seat he gave mre some thing I turn on the light in the car and pull out a card Michael Reese realitys with his office number on it and his cell number I smile and laugh at the same time because this card I was going to keep with all that good dick he just gave me I turn off the light inside the car you think you’re the shit don’t you Uncle Ernie said while a silouette of sat in the back seat I didn’t see any body else behind here besides it was to dark to tell if there was any body lurking about I pull on around to the front of the building were there was more light you think you done a good job I could do better than them guys did i stop real fast causing  my breaks to screach real loud the truck in the back almost hit me i turn around now you listen hear you mutherfucker that’s why yo ass is dead know because of what you did to me  to you  whos dead and why are you dead Uncle Ernie and yeah don’t call me Uncle no more you don’t deserve to have an uncle find bye me I felt some body was watching me from behind so I look up and wondering why the truck didn’t just go around me but it just sat there I look at it and I felt a streak of embarassment come over me when I saw who it was
it was the guys I got through  fuckin both were staring at me in shock like who is this bitch talking to Uncle Ernie turn around and saw what i was staring at  you  busted may be they can see me to he turn around and started yellin here I am here I am come and get this crazy bitch I had a little smirk on my face as I look at  Michael right in the eye and I pull on off mad as hell why fuck you always got to be messin up every thing i made a sharp turn t  se if they would follow me I keep on driving  because I knew the blue truck was still following me if only that mutherfucker was alone I would took care of him back at the mall i speed up and he speed up I turn a corner he turn a corner this muther fucker want to play games well game on you no good